Today is the first day I've started to unravel. I'm feeling like I'm trying to hold people up to support them, but I'm about to collapse. It's all getting to be too much.
So when I got a surprise call from my psychiatrist's office for an appointment, I could at least see that God was taking care of me. It was a relief just talking out my burdens.
But I started to feel more stressed and anxious as I got closer and closer to home after my appointment. My chest got tighter, breathing more shallow and my head started to hurt. I don't want to be here right now. I need some time to myself. Or, it's just that I need some space to ruminate, sort through the mess in my brain.
I can't be responsible for other people's pessimism, for other people's attitudes. This is what is weighing on me so heavily today. What can I do? I can't change another's mind, but it affects me too.
Most of the time I can handle it....it's just depression brain today. Blah!
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