Yesterday was a rather exciting day as I put some finishing touches on my plans for the future. As I had alluded to in an earlier post, I've been considering going into the law profession; namely advocacy.
Even before I got fired I had started the process of reconsidering my career and possibly changing my direction. I've had two appointments with a career counselor and they have been very informative and insightful. The extra time off I've had as of late has allowed me to do a little more soul searching so I can figure out exactly what I want to do. And because my faith is such a large part of my life, I've also been considering and trying to figure out God's plans for me.
I had an epiphany last week about my purpose in life. It started in my Bible study, where we have been learning about our "S.H.A.P.E."
S -> Spiritual Gifts
H -> Heart
A -> Abilities
P -> Personality
E -> Experiences
All of these aspects of a person contribute to their purpose in life, what God has made them best suited for.
Everyone in our Bible study was encouraged to do an on-line spiritual gifts test. My top-scoring gifts are faith, discernment, mercy, writing, teaching and knowledge.
I'm sure some of you are wondering, "What are spiritual gifts?" Well, here's what the Bible has to say about them.
There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit. There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. There are different kinds of working, but the same God works all of them in all men.Now to each one the manifestation of the Spirit is given for the common good. To one there is given through the Spirit the message of wisdom, to another the message of knowledge by means of the same Spirit, to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healing by that one Spirit, to another miraculous powers, to another prophecy, to another distinguishing between spirits, to another speaking in different kinds of tongues, and to still another the interpretation of tongues. All these are the work of one and the same Spirit, and he gives them to each one, just as he determines. (1 Corinthians 12:4-11)
That is just one passage of many dealing with the different ways God enables people to do good works in the world. A few of my gifts were mentioned there: knowledge, faith, distinguishing between spirits (discernment).
In summary, God gives His people abilities so that "each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms"(1 Peter 4:10). All of the abilities are for serving other people, not for ourselves.
The rest of the "S.H.A.P.E" stuff is fairly self-explanatory. Heart as in what I'm passionate about, blah, blah, blah....
- Heart: I care about justice. I want to see people overcome injustice. I also like to influence people. I love writing and researching and learning.
- Abilities: I'm a good writer; I can teach, counsel, research. I'm a little artsy-fartsy too.
- Personality: According to Myers-Briggs I'm an INFP which means Introverted, iNtuitive, Feeling and Perceiving. I know what it means and if you're really that interested, you can google it.
- Experiences: I have plenty of experience with mental illness! And I have my school experiences and work experiences....Too much to go into in depth here.
After considering all of these different aspects of my life and also thinking about the work I had done in my career counseling sessions, I realized I'm suited for work in advocacy!
So then I started looking into law schools. Don't want to bother with university because I really don't want to be a full-fledge lawyer. I looked into college programs and found something perfect for me. And I can start in January!
Yesterday I filled out the application and paid the application fee. Now I just need to wait.
Needless to say, it was very exciting for me yesterday, having something figured out for myself. A direction, a place to live. Now I'm looking for temporary employment. I have plans!
Today, Sam's consultation with a surgeon about the possibilities and complications of surgery for the pancreatic cancer.
Today was a downer. Especially now that Sam has a full understanding of what his disease is and how he could die very soon.
Part way through our talk with the doctor, Sam said, "So you're saying I'm going to die?" I was shaking the whole time, making it difficult to take notes. Sam has been crying off and on throughout the day.
I can't imagine what it must be like to find out it's likely you're going to be dead in a year.