I've decided

I'm sick and tired of people saying things about Sam's impending death like, "At least he'll be in a better place," or, "He won't be in any suffering anymore." I've made a decision on these kinds of pat, BULLSHIT answers!

Sam's life isn't any less of a life because he has disabilities. Saying it's a blessing for him to die is just plan messed up! It's sounds more like a person is supporting euthanasia rather than cherishing life in all it's fullness and variety. When Sam came to a full understanding of his disease and his prognosis in that appointment a couple weeks ago saying, "So you're saying I'm going to die?" he was devastated. He was devastated just as much as anyone else would be! He loves his life. He wasn't thinking anything like, 'well at least in heaven I won't be brain injured anymore. Then life will really start.'

Who really wants to die?? (Besides the suicidals.... and I actually don't think most of them truly want to die either, but that's another discussion.)

Sam has had a hard, unfortunate life. But it's a life. I can understand why he wouldn't want to leave it.

And yes, I fully understand that "to live is Christ and to die is gain"(Philippians 1:21) and that "whoever wants to save his life will lose it but whoever loses his life for me[Jesus] will find it"(Matthew 16:25). Ya' know, when I look at these verses now, I don't see that they necessarily mean that it's great to die because then you're in heaven. Remember "to live is Christ." It is so beautiful to be on this earth knowing the Lord. What good am I to God dead? Would I be writing this blog? No! And I wouldn't be doing any other kind of work for God either. Not here on earth anyway. I'd be in heaven singing praises to God, which albeit will be pretty awesome, but it's not doing anything toward any good works here on this suffering planet. God likes us alive too.

Sam is not dead yet, so please don't talk to me like he is! Things really look bad right now. He has been very, very sick and is back in the hospital and today I started questioning whether he will even make it to Christmas. This is immensely hard to deal with. I need people to mourn with me. "Mourn with those who mourn"(Romans 12:15). "Carry each others burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ"(Galatians 6:2).