Thank You Jimmy Eat World!

One of my all-time favourite songs is The Middle by Jimmy Eat World. Here are the lyrics:

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.

It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.

Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.

It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.

Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.

It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.

And you can listen and watch the video on youtube too.

A few days ago I was sitting waiting for the Christmas concert that my dad was involved in to start. I was sitting there thinking and lamenting about how I've gained weight. Crazy meds are notorious for that. I have clothes that don't fit and other clothes that just don't look nearly as nice anymore because I have more gut sticking out. It was making me feel horrible. Like I'm ugly, undesirable and disappointing. It even makes me feel like a failure. As though I've failed to maintain myself, failed to have self-control when those carb cravings hit.

On the way home I heard this song twice! I love it so much. And it's not as though gaining weight is the only thing I'm down about right now. I have a list of much more meaningful and worthy things to be concerned and depressed about. This song always reminds me that I'm okay just as I am and to stop comparing myself to others and trying to measure up to other's expectations.

It's just so perfect.